ADHD

Anyone who’s dealt with ADHD long enough: has it ever gotten easier?

I feel like since becoming aware of the symptoms the struggle has only worsened, despite always considering myself decently self-aware.

I don’t know if it’s just the compounding responsibilities of work, marriage, parenthood, and adulthood. Or if it’s some weird permanent brain fog from covid. Or a tangible side effect of being plugged into crypto almost 24/7 for three years. Or just a dwindling sense of agency and direction and control of emotions.

But it’s been six years now that I’ve seen three therapists, one psychiatrist with a brief round of antidepressants, and tried numerous tools and tricks yet it all feels like it’s falling apart.

Where did I go wrong?

Every time I see someone make fun of ADHD and suggest it's fake, or a conspiracy by Big Pharma to sell medication, I get mad all over again. This thing is very real and the people who suffer from it wouldn't wish on their worst enemies.

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I always wanted to know if I had adhd, it seems like I have some “symptoms” but I am also paranoid of self-diagnosing (I think false positives more likely than false negatives esp with self diagnosis?)

In my opinion it's more important if you thinking you may have adhd leads to you finding skills that help you live your life more smoothly. If you do go for a diagnosis and learn that you don't have it then big shrug. You still learned how to manage things you have been struggling with. 

That said. I will also point out that the rate of self diagnosis being false is fairly low. Dig into it. Do some research and see what resonates with you. I know there are some valid online tests out there that can start to point you in the right direction too.