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before all this trauma healing my nervous system was so frozen that every task required a massive battle against myself. it was like i subconsciously associated action with death and my body and mind were doing everything possible to keep me still. and it was killing me
i was too foggy, sick, and fatigued to take care of myself and my life, and was falling more and more behind
i used to use deadlines to switch from freeze mode to fight-or-flight and get some things done in a panic, but even that trick wore out (adrenal fatigue perhaps?)
i didn’t realize how bad it was until i started to experience the opposite…
now if there’s something i want to get done, i just do it. no battling myself, stressing, or budgeting my energy. it’s easy and light
i’ve been running and strength training. fixing things around the house, deep cleaning, gardening, and keeping up with the laundry. and all the self care
once i’ve caught up to a maintenance level with my health and home, i’ll add another category! 5 replies
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