basil
@itsbasil
sometimes i fall into that old trap & wonder why everyone hates me & then i realize they probably don’t, i just hate myself & then i realize that none of it matters anyway because i am a pseudo-anonymous so-called problematic internet herb anyway, i’ve decided to just unapologetically double down on myself because i’m a good person & if they hate me, i’ll just hide behind some cringe shit like “there is courage in being disliked” or “real men smile when enemies appear cause it means they stood for something” but that is, of course, only what i’ll say out loud, meanwhile the internal voice will rip me a new one so maybe i’ll hide behind something less cringe like “when we don’t know who to hate, we hate ourselves” or perhaps just fullsend some pinterest quote about my poor tortured soul or maybe ill just shut up & funnel it into my work & live by “and that’s how the cookie crumbles” but then again, maybe i wont either way people who love themselves scare me but happy for you
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basil
@itsbasil
anyone who has done any kind of self exploration or philosophical study knows that happiness is ultimately a choice you must make but that doesn’t guarantee self love, though self love often comes with happiness the truth is that some neurological pathways are so deeply embedded that any attempt at plasticity is devastating hard & requires structural cognitive & habitual changes persisted over many years this, alone, is feasible, but when those pathways solidify pre-puberty it’s damn near impossible to restructure your thought patterns but still we get out of bed every day & work towards betterment because there is no alternative wrt to the below, stoicism is helpful in framing happiness because it doesn’t allow you to pin it on any objective goal, such as a project or material attainment but again, anyone who has studied anything even remotely related knows that that is just not how happiness works & in fact, the entire premise often works against you https://warpcast.com/ds8/0x3218983d
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kompreni 🚂
@kompreni
Bro's out here trolling himself
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🗿 ted (not K.)
@bias
i am trying to figure out how to scare you, but it’s not easy
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bry
@brykayne
😂 ‘internet herb’
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