ADHD

thought my adhd might be a lie after a year on meds
turns out unmedicated life is still pure suffering

set 3 rules going in:
- eat 1 clean meal a day
- perform a wake-up routine (cold water splash, stretch, 10+ min walk)
- no screens 1hr before bed


days 1–4
- major withdrawals
- slept constantly
- barely functioning
- managed meals + routine — but barely
- house chores (only small wins)

days 5–6
- braindead
- permanent brain fog
- slept less, still tired
- 0 agency
- sugar + gaming cravings hit hard
- creatine maybe helped a bit — unclear if placebo

day 7
- hit the wall
- gave in post-breakfast
- youtube shorts + minecraft all day
- passive consumption was the only time i felt semi-alive


conclusion 
- unmedicated me atm = floating through life with cravings 
- intentional dopamine is hard when brain afk
- gratitude, movement, gaming all too much effort
- not ready to function unmedicated yet 
- will try 21 days another time

imagining a world where ai reunites humanity
⟢ /whimsio coded

what do you take if you don’t mind me asking

idm at all — i’m taking vyvanse 60mg 

it serves the same purpose to me as a catalyst in a chemical reaction — reducing activation energy so that i can actually function rather than bedrot 🫠