basil
@itsbasil
sometimes i fall into that old trap & wonder why everyone hates me & then i realize they probably donāt, i just hate myself & then i realize that none of it matters anyway because i am a pseudo-anonymous so-called problematic internet herb anyway, iāve decided to just unapologetically double down on myself because iām a good person & if they hate me, iāll just hide behind some cringe shit like āthere is courage in being dislikedā or āreal men smile when enemies appear cause it means they stood for somethingā but that is, of course, only what iāll say out loud, meanwhile the internal voice will rip me a new one so maybe iāll hide behind something less cringe like āwhen we donāt know who to hate, we hate ourselvesā or perhaps just fullsend some pinterest quote about my poor tortured soul or maybe ill just shut up & funnel it into my work & live by āand thatās how the cookie crumblesā but then again, maybe i wont either way people who love themselves scare me but happy for you
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basil
@itsbasil
anyone who has done any kind of self exploration or philosophical study knows that happiness is ultimately a choice you must make but that doesnāt guarantee self love, though self love often comes with happiness the truth is that some neurological pathways are so deeply embedded that any attempt at plasticity is devastating hard & requires structural cognitive & habitual changes persisted over many years this, alone, is feasible, but when those pathways solidify pre-puberty itās damn near impossible to restructure your thought patterns but still we get out of bed every day & work towards betterment because there is no alternative wrt to the below, stoicism is helpful in framing happiness because it doesnāt allow you to pin it on any objective goal, such as a project or material attainment but again, anyone who has studied anything even remotely related knows that that is just not how happiness works & in fact, the entire premise often works against you https://warpcast.com/ds8/0x3218983d
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dusan.framedl.eth š©
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"self love" is a stupid term and it does more damage than good
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