therapy

i completed my second session with the fancy new therapist recently

we did parts work with tapping, speaking to different ages of myself, starting with prenate. working with my infant self absolutely broke me for some reason

despite having no memories or stories from this time, i tapped into a great well of pain that originated there

it was sad and it was a lot, but we made tons of progress. it feels like a layer of my psyche that has been hypervigilant my whole life has finally relaxed into a feeling of safety

my anxiety levels are noticeably down and i have more energy for other things. it feels like there are still layers and facets to attend to, but i’m excited to keep moving forward with this

It takes great courage to do this work, keep going!

The infant / in utero stuff is particularly challenging because you feel for the helpless being that had to absorb so much. But always better late than never :)

it’s brutal. i need to do it though. it feels like life or death at this point. i can’t continue with how things were 

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