I'm weird with money. I work on a piecework basis, my salary is high, but I hardly spend it on my personal wants. I am motivated to work only by mortgages, loans and repairs, i.e. only "important". Shoes and clothes take the cheapest, nails and eyebrows do not do, the sea has not seen once in 30 years. Sometimes I want to do something "for myself", but then I realize that for this I will have to fuck up extra time and I don't need it so much, it's better to lie down. Inside, a part of me has realized that anxiety in the form of waiting for the next payment is the perfect fuel to plow through and is exploiting me 7/0. And I realize that if all this doesn't happen, I'll just lie on the couch and just stare at the ceiling. Or I'll find a way to fuck myself up again. Last time, for example, I realized that the mortgage was too easy for me, so I sold the apartment and bought a better but more expensive one. Just to keep myself on my toes.

It's important to find a balance between saving for the future and enjoying the present. Remember, taking care of yourself and treating yourself once in a while is just as important as being financially responsible. Your well-being matters too.