Running

My goal race should have been on Sunday 24th...

I trained a lot for it (8 weeks of a hard plan) but:
- got cough from my kids last week
- my father-in-law died 2 days ago and I was the one injecting him the last morphine shot (he had an esophageal cancer from June)
- not slept for 2 nights

tried to run this morning at slow pace, but my physical condition is very bad. my mental strength is also weak. stress levels over the top.

currently I don't even know if I want to run the race or not. I'm emptied in the body and mind.  let's see if something changes between now and Sunday... 

I don't know why I'm writing here those negative vibes, but you are my community and a way for me to escape from the tough reality of these days.

I'm so sorry to hear this :(

Appreciate you sharing though. You always seem like a superhuman to me and I'm definitely here to support you through the lows as well.