I don't know what I want. Like, at all. It's very disconcerting. Aimless but productive, always grinding away at something. Some task. Some rabbit hole that ultimately goes nowhere. Over and over. Like a fractal of mundane excess, self-similar and sharp, but self consuming and lost. So lost.

I feel ya. And this liminality is a place I also spend a lot of time in. You might enjoy “the ritual of becoming” (something I put together years ago; free code hidden on homepage)

I feel ya. And this liminality is a place I also spend a lot of time in. You might enjoy “the ritual of becoming” (something I put together years ago; free code hidden on homepage) https://www.cleverness.com/word

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I have not finished reading this. But of the self-help gurus that have been shared, this - you - get the closest to the feeling AND the vaguely-autistic-but-just-a-maladapted-adult-systemization response. I will give this due thought. And thank you for the (seemingly) brilliant and therapeutic piece.