I realized I didn't love my wife. I didn't really want to get married. She insisted at the time, so we lived like that. It was convenient for me: the house was clean, I came home from work and was fed. Lovemaking not often, but there were. But there wasn't any strong love from my side. We are under 30 years old, she started talking about a child. I thought I should, as the years go by. She got pregnant. And I finally realized it's not what I want. I don't want to be home, I'm going on business trips. I can barely tolerate her touching me, at least she doesn't bother me. I want to leave, but how can I leave her with a baby? I feel like an asshole, but there's nothing I can do.
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