manifesting

a month of magical thinking
day 24

negative emotions are fading away more and more. they are so weak and rare these days. if i notice myself moving toward one, which has been maybe once or twice a day, i can easily redirect my mind. simply stopping my thoughts is enough to float back into a happy and high state. it’s pretty interesting to feel only positive feelings 99% of the time! 

all the meditation and other tools i’ve implemented over the years have prepared me perfectly for this moment. with a high degree of trauma interfering, they were never enough. it was a ton of work just to not feel horrible. but with a much lighter load of trauma they are incredibly powerful. it’s like i trained for a sport with a hundred pound weight on my back, and now that it’s gone i feel like i’m flying 

i do think that the euphoria of releasing so much trauma could be a temporary high from finding so much relief in a short time, but i’m going to do all i can to keep going in a positive direction