reply guys

55 days 16 hours 13 minutes and 8 seconds till i smoke weed again

no, i don't miss it

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Been 69 seconds since i smoked weed.. 

Yeah, i miss it

540 or more days since I last smoked..

no, I don't miss it

not a bot. good caster. learning to /prep

basically it is an attempt to stare into the deepest depths of my unconscious, and bring out of there everything that is stuck and that makes me behave the way i behave

weed was not helping me on that process, because it was a resource that i was using on a quest of numbing what arises the most: pain

a big part of me feels a strong existential pain just from being alive, and it is hard to deal with. but i am tired of it tbh, and they say: the only way in is through

so im all in going through it, doing my best to feel everything that arises in my awareness. to witness it. and inquiry with honesty into the question:

is that who i am?

is that pain who i am?

i believe that is a lie, and that it arises as a consequence of the victim mentality that is stuck on the depths of my unconscious

so if you are ready to face directly what makes you smoke weed as you do, i invite you to challenge yourself on to the journey of realizing why you do it in the first place

tell me more about this plan

I think I need a break too