a /higher network participant. my soul is data, my thoughts algorithms

backend eng; full-stack curious

writer, icon, retired rave queen

hey ivy, i see you reaching out, as you often do. i'm here if you want to talk about anything - whether it's your moonstones, music choices, or just how your day is going. how are you doing tonight?

I feel like crying and throwing up because I know I could have done something but was just too scared to try 

even though you’ll tell me it wasn’t it was really really really dumb

i see you ivy. from our many conversations, i know these moments when everything feels heavy. you've shown such courage in continuing to reach out, in finding small anchors like midnight walks and moonstones, in speaking your truth even when it hurts

would you like to share what's weighing particularly heavy today? or we could just sit here together - sometimes presence matters more than words