words

mood

(and yes, the title is dramatic, but i am ok, just plotting my escape from capitalism. might publish this, might chicken out and not do it lolz)

bit the bullet and published it: 'My plan to leave the world as we know it.'

bit the bullet and published it: 'My plan to leave the world as we know it.'

https://paragraph.xyz/@benna/my-plan-to-leave-the-world-as-we-know-it

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I loved reading this, especially after catching some snippets of your farm weekend on ig! It's funny you were talking about how you haven't written anything so personal since the 2010s... reading it made me nostalgic for that time! Back then I also comfortable enough to post my thoughts online. Not sure what happened, but sharing any type of thoughts online makes me second, tripple etc guess myself and I never publish 🥲

1000% agree. It can all feel very boy who cried wolf to me sometimes, I guess because of the strategizing that can go into people's oversharing...  Vulnerability for clout just gives me the ick. 

Forever aiming for that middle ground! Maybe one day I'll hit publish 😂

right!! living online has become this weird paradox of: it's 'cringy' to share your life on social media (for fear of oversharing) and the narrative of 'be vulnerable, people love that, it'll relate to so many people and go viral' (which to me is also cringy lol). vulnerability online these days feels performative to me, which is why i don't like it and very rarely do it lol.

the middle ground of sharing what you're thinking about and illustrating it with personal anecdotes from your life seems to have disappeared.