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And your pressure. Keep it to yourself. We want to hear about successes.

Neither the body nor the vain mind is merciful. Even when you strive for success and reach the top. The happy ending that you worked for years. You discover that it is not an ending, and it may not be happy either.

You are happy for a while (I became the most famous player - I achieved the highest views - I presented the best product - etc...)

But after a while the happiness disappears and is replaced by existential questions. Like What next? How do I break the record I achieved? And you remain in this state!

This is me in these days!

Trying to be funny | Awarded Filmmaker | 3D Artist - /actors

I spent years going after a singular goal - obtaining my dream home.  I did it in the most serendipitous of ways, only paying $4000 to get a two bedroom home with gardens and a pond.

And then I just... was existing for awhile.  Content.

Until the contentment became stagnation and I entered what I call my Existential Midlife Crisis.  What next? is my driving question.  

It took breaking my leg to start getting clearer on that.

And really, it's not a huge change.  It's just improvements on the foundation.