confession

**Anonymous post**

I cant stop lying

I cannot stop lying and i hate myself so much for it. idk how to go back.

i cant stop lying about horrible thibgs,, im a disgusting person and i dont know how to move forward from this. im only 61 backwards and i cant forgive myself. ive lied abt one SA encounter, drugs and even tiny stuoid thibgs like childhood dance classes and what i eat. and ive exaggerated stories countkess times. i never mean or plan to say these thibgs, they just come out and i cant stop them and then i feel sick. i need someone to help but i cant admit ti my closest ppl that ive lied, i love them so much i cannot lose them. i feel so beyond guilty and the remorse and humiliation is rising daily and the urge to relapse is so so near. how do i stop???? i dont even know how or when it started. i ** hate myself and everything i say. i pray that the horrible things ive lied abt hapoen to me because at this point i deserve it. how do i stop this please