There is something out there something meant for you and you’ll never figure it out unless you try! 

Try to find that something which makes you happy

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I can attest to the sentiment of your post man, I was trying for yeeeeears and then it all clicked into place about 4 years ago thanks to studying fine art at university. Everything that has happened since then has put my life on a track I never thought it would be and it's amazing