ph0enixd0wn
@ph0enixd0wn.eth
Two days ago my son opened his eyes for the first time after a 17 day medically induced coma. The moment we looked at each other, instantly we both began to cry. So many emotions rushed through my mind and right before the instance of being overwhelmed by these feelings, I pulled it together. I had to. Not for my sanity but for his. As he laid there with dozens of little IV tubes running in, then out of his body and a larger hose crammed down his throat forcing his lungs to rise and fall, I knew my responsibility was to comfort him and remove all fear from his mind. His fingers stretched towards me from his motionless hand and tears ran down his cheek, falling onto the little tubes, sliding down and collecting at the lowest point before dripping on the floor. A tiny puddle of tears that I could not and would not allow to build up. So I began to speak to him in hopes that sound and dialogue would allow him to be distracted long enough to know that everything was going to be ok. I started with witty bante…
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ph0enixd0wn
@ph0enixd0wn.eth
His attention was focused and he was suddenly coherent to everything around him. Signaling and responding to others just out of his vision. A collective wave of relief from family and staff settled in. I stayed in the same spot from the time I grasped those fingers outstretched like a plant leaning into the sun's light until he fell back into a gentle slumber. All the while, keeping my game face on and appearing to be confident to reassure him that everything would be ok. Until the moment I was leaving and stepped into the elevator. My mask of confidence hit the ground before my tears did. Sobbing uncontrollably, feeling powerless to the shift in tides. Yet still I held a sliver of hope. Maybe I was fooling myself because the next day shredded that sliver of hope into pieces. So many side effects from his 17 day journey through darkness are now present. Weakness, confusion, fear, and frustration along with the worry of all the medical issues to overcome have now washed over him. Currently we are waiting …
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Carla Monni
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Oh my Poseidon, thank you for sharong this story dear
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