Philosophy

How can a death seeking person be afraid of anything? 
The only fear such person can have is to not live each day true to himself.

That's one of my freshest ideas.  
I've spent the last 10 years in such an unspeakable state of anxiety and stress. Now I'm asking myself "Why?".

10 years ago I was enlightened with the sacred knowledge that it's better to NOT exist than to exist, that's it's better to never be born in the first place, that if you were unlucky enough to be born  you better off ending it asap.

Still, I wasn't smart enough to take advantage of this discovery.