Philosophy

10 years ago I was enlightened with the sacred knowledge that it's better to NOT exist than to exist, that's it's better to never be born in the first place, that if you were unlucky enough to be born  you better off ending it asap.

Still, I wasn't smart enough to take advantage of this discovery.

and the advantage is the fact that I should not be scared or anxious of anything. Why our brains are anxious? Because they're afraid of failure and hypothetically a series of failures can lead to death. All fears one way or another is a fear of death.
But what if you seek death? You become fearless.