retired

𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖆𝖙𝖚𝖒 𝖆𝖉 𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖗𝖆

How smart do you consider yourself to be?

why do you say so?, i’d take your place if i could

idk, hard to explain.

part of me just kinda deals with what works and what doesn't, but another part of me wants to deal with working at something elusive, to the point that it feels deserved & duly considered.

leaping from thing to thing, or doing other tricks, sometimes feels hollow.

yeah, I definitely feel the jack of all trade, master of none.

then again, maybe it's supposed to be slightly like that for everyone. it seems like curiosity can be a push out of the comfort zone, but I still feel deeply dissatisfied with the amount of focus I've exerted on my curiosity.

I will probably reflect on this in the coming years.

It just means you haven’t exactly figured out what you want to do yet, but still, the several things you’re doing rn or have done has gotten you to where you are currently, that in itself is still good. 

For me on the other hand, my battle is not just about things feeling hollow, it’s a battle with being average, a jack of all trades and a master at none. Sad really