I never thought I would be faced with a choice: to start a relationship through reluctance or to be alone. When I was 25, I lost the man I loved. It was hard for me, but I realized that from the fact that I lay down next to him he will not get up and after a while I again wanted to start a relationship with someone. I was 26 years old. I wanted a man next to me, a shoulder, to love someone again. I started trying to get acquainted, to communicate, but all men were not my categorically. I went to meetings with them not because I wanted to, but because I promised to come. I thought maybe I should wait and look around, but continuing to communicate with them made me feel worse than alone. 
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