i saw my Ex yesterday and she showed me her crappy new clothes with litters of bleach, and half sawed pockets, her paintings are worst than ever, and she, of course, asked in the end, to INVEST in her work !
i don't feel it, i don't trust her with funding, she always act crazy and lose it all, and of course she started to be agressive, mean, and reproach me to have "used her" and "her body" and twisted her mind into trusting me with building a life, but she forgets how she was drinking, when she hit me in the head, when she threatened me to go see the cops cause i still had few substance abuse issues, but DAMN ! 
Your girl, your love is not supposed to threaten you in the morning and tell you before bed, give me everything baby cause anyway you might be dead in a couple of years.
I'll never see her again, she makes me so nervous and unhappy it's mad, i feel like the girl i have met in the first place when we discovered each other, has simply never existed.
RIP my last try with love...💔