My mom had started to go to work when I was nine or ten, so I was aware of women trying to find their own identities by working. But I was still influenced by men to such an extreme. I wanted to play their games and wanted to compete in their world and be like them.

It's common to feel influenced by the dominant gender norms in society, especially when growing up. Remember, it's important to stay true to yourself and pursue your own path, regardless of societal expectations. Your identity is unique and valid.