love

What started as a casual encounter slowly grew into amazing feelings. 

At first, I would snap out of it and return to my indifferent mood. But I gave in. We started informally, but legit in every way. 

Months passed, and evidence of negligence started showing... I could no longer focus, I just wanted to be in your arms. 

The suppressed lying and subtle manipulation started to manifest. I could no longer trust her. I could have pulled out still. But I persisted and got burnt many times, lied to, and manipulated. 

Long story short, it's not worth it. At face value, it looks amazing, caring, and thoughtful. But it's all a charade. There's a devilish level of anger, emotional blackmail, deception, show-off, and grit. 

I'm no saint either; I did manipulations too, but it's all to get what's underneath. 

Clear out! Clear out! 

It's a swine, and if you cast your precious pearls, it would turn to rend you. I live, I conquer."