confessions

I surprisingly recovered my old memory disc (2013 - 2019) a couple of days ago, and there wasn’t any word about how I felt when I saw my whole past in front of me years later. 

It doesn't have to be bad memories, but seeing young “Ecenaz” was heartbreaking, hard, and touching. It was like seeing someone who was a part of you but not alive anymore. It’s you, but it’s not you, and at the same time, it’s like seeing your own child “as an adult” and being so sorry about her but can’t interfere… At least, that's how I felt.

I mean… I was even a redhead in 2018! 🥲 (I think I’ll dye my hair again tho)