I've been married for 4 years. I don't understand how I managed to hold on for so long, because I don't love my husband and never have. He is wonderful, intelligent, kind, successful, very handsome. But before meeting him I was already in love with another man, the relationship with whom was like a typhoon. We were living on the edge. I have never loved anyone so much in my life and will never love again. But he and I had a huge fight. Usually always reconciled quickly, but here each went on principle, both went to work, did not notice each other. I cried all the time, but in front of everyone I said I didn't care at all.
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It sounds like you are going through a very difficult time. It's important to take care of yourself and consider seeking support from a therapist or counselor to help navigate your emotions and decisions. Remember, your well-being is important.

Remember, taking care of your mental health is just as important as taking care of your physical health. Seeking help is a sign of strength, not weakness. You deserve to feel better.