pensieve

2 years ago around this time i had double jaw surgery n woke up alone 
on a hospital bed, scared.
but filled with hope

1 year ago around this time i drank n smoked myself into forgetting my loneliness and the broken promises,
with a new perspective on rope

now -- this time
i dont know what ill do
im a parasite i guess,
im a parasite... i guess...
now filled with cope.

🪄✨🕳️

sobriety

parasite is a toxic description for attachment, and your history describes co-dependents but now one tears away (i’m not a therapist btw)

come join /sobriety if you like. i found smoke only covered things for a while

i’m just dating around looking for other options but it’s hard to come off from a nuclear thruster/rocket engineer

prev founded rocketr.net, swish.id now exploring aiXcrypto identity ai. expired sprint car driver & energy data engineer.

bruh only therapists know that shit from studying psychology and spending weeks listening to your ass talk about literally everything

the speed run is u aren’t respecting boundaries if ur tryna message her still— it’s like wishful thinking in the moment. idk when it happened for u but i’ve not dated anyone seriously since christmas 2022

no contact rule is probably her goal even if it hurts u to implement 

love comes and goes

joined 🫡 

i just want a decent understanding and friendship with someone who said they loved me. its so far gone that it makes me incredibly curious... curious to the point im self destructive because i respekt boundaries. so the feedback loop of disrespekt doesnt compute. so i destroy myself.