We learn, we fail, then what the end of our journey? Is it destination, the goal, or status we wish our reality became because the current status makes us suffering?

No one knows, no one wish to answer? Our self awareness keeps us suffering, hurt us, awake us about the reality?  Happiness is just a state of life or maybe some chemical released in our brain which is material? 
Is our consicous brain  Is that bad living without purposes? Or our purposes polluted our moment because it delusion us to think future is better not now?