For the past three years, I've been living in automatic mode. I've been doing chores, working, taking care of the kids. Even delicious food doesn't make me happy anymore, although chocolate used to make me feel better. I don't want anything at all, my favorite time of day is when I sleep and don't participate in reality. I have a normal family, my husband is adequate. Domestic invalid except that, but there is no such thing as perfect, otherwise he is a wonderful person. Kids like kids, everyday life like everyday life, like everyone else. And I don't want to wake up, I just put up with life. I thought it was just fatigue, but we flew as a family to Turkey and there I had exactly the same condition, nothing to do, nothing interesting. I want to hide in a cave from the whole world, just fall asleep and sink into oblivion.....
#life #history #interesting