I often think my work is helping to make the world a better place. Then I get into a fight with my person and am instantly triggered to act like a petulant 6 year old. 

Or I get on a customer service call with someone who doesn’t know what they’re doing and instantly lose my cool. 

So difficult to enact - our relationships and all the ways we’re triggered are the spiritual practice, not the time on the cushion, not the mission driven career.

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Maybe enact was the wrong word my friend - I agree the practice is not only falling off but realizing you did and all that entails. Enact was meant to contrast with intellectual - theoretical practice. You put in your time on the cushion but you’re reactive, snap to judgment etc - and these seem small things. But for me the greatest challenge is becoming conscious in the moment my reactive emotions kick in. That is the enactment of ones autonomy, one’s freedom.

Appreciate you sharing this. I relate to it and agree that it's part of the practice. Tho I still think the latter two are also part of it. 

I don't think we're meant to be able to simply "enact it" on will and expect it to stay that way. Falling off over and over but gently coming back onto the path and trying/learning to stay on it is prob more like it. 

This is why I think religions give such massive leeway for sin -- like almost no matter how you fuck up, if you genuinely repent (not my fav word) and ask for forgiveness, it's all good. :)