a month of magical thinking 
day 26

the more i focus on the positive, the more i notice old negative beliefs and trauma responses as they surface. the more i heal those, the more positive i feel. the more positive i feel, the more i notice old negative beliefs and trauma responses. the pattern keeps repeating over and over and over. and it’s a lot of work!

part of me really wants to speed run this process so it can be over, but i know that is not recommended (and that it will never really be over) so i’m just working on everything that comes up naturally, and being thorough. it’s tempting to feel overwhelmed or discouraged with how much work is left to do, but it’s also easy to feel really proud and excited about the amount i’ve already accomplished instead. i can’t even explain what i’ve overcome to be where i am today, and honestly you probably don’t want to know

but now the light is spreading 

the old me is burning away