manifesting

the magical thinking experiment i started in august is really kicking my ass

when you set an intention towards a new desire, you can get experiences in the opposite direction for awhile. old negative patterns need resolution before you can become a person aligned with your goals. it’s often mild and easy to deal with, but not always

for me, health has been the biggest challenge. i first ended up with migraines that lasted about a month. then while treating that, i came across a new path i could take toward healing my gut issues, which have been increasingly severe, but that path has been a huge test. along with other side effects, i’ve barely been able to move for weeks, and i’m feeling lost and disoriented in this liminal place

i know my goal now needs to be healing my body and resolving as much trauma and chronic stress as possible, but i have a hard time neglecting work for so long. i need to get my shit together though. learn how to be a functional human so i can reboot my career on solid ground

i know one of my biggest negative patterns is neglecting myself for work, and i’m currently in a situation that requires the opposite, which is a lot of why it feels so bad. slowly working through it so hopefully it won’t come up anymore down the road

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