I don't know what I want. Like, at all. It's very disconcerting. Aimless but productive, always grinding away at something. Some task. Some rabbit hole that ultimately goes nowhere. Over and over. Like a fractal of mundane excess, self-similar and sharp, but self consuming and lost. So lost.

Doing nothing is sometimes the best option

It sounds like you may be in what Rick Rubin calls the "seed collecting phase" . A phase where you are experimenting, collecting inspiration (thru trial and error or otherwise) for the next big thing.

Be open and receptive to the "signals" of the universe