ADHD

Anyone who’s dealt with ADHD long enough: has it ever gotten easier?

I feel like since becoming aware of the symptoms the struggle has only worsened, despite always considering myself decently self-aware.

I don’t know if it’s just the compounding responsibilities of work, marriage, parenthood, and adulthood. Or if it’s some weird permanent brain fog from covid. Or a tangible side effect of being plugged into crypto almost 24/7 for three years. Or just a dwindling sense of agency and direction and control of emotions.

But it’s been six years now that I’ve seen three therapists, one psychiatrist with a brief round of antidepressants, and tried numerous tools and tricks yet it all feels like it’s falling apart.

Where did I go wrong?

This post from @sdv.eth hit harder than I expected. You won't understand the pain behind "Where did I go wrong?" unless you've lived with the experience of trying and failing to manage ADHD.

ADHDers are some of the most determined and resourceful people you'll meet, which means you can bet we'll try everything to get better. But what you learn quickly is that ADHD almost always means fighting a difficult war with nature and losing 90% of the time.

I avoid talking about ADHD publicly because it often sounds like complaining. However, acknowledging the difficulty of working and living as a neurodivergent individual means I can cut myself some slack and recognize the small wins.

Sometimes you wish you never knew about this weird four-letter condition. I'll always choose knowledge over ignorance, though. Knowing how my brain functions and understanding my limits has made life easier/tolerable in certain cases.

Maybe it does get better.

father, husband, css golfer, ux engineer, silently defining variables as /sdv sdv.wtf