basil, why won’t you take the pills? can’t they help?

while its true that my neurosis is the source of my deepest agony, it’s also my greatest strength. you see, i’ve danced with death so many times before, that it’s whispered its secrets to me. so while most can only see the light, i can see the shadow that trails behind. that is to say, my edge lies where chaos begins & i won’t live my life with blinders on

yappin in /midwits & creating idle rpg /animarising

for me i need meds

the neurosis is wonderful and still exists while on meds

the pain tho subsides and the intensity of suffering on a low hum does as well

it’s unfair to my mind to let my body be that way, and so i take meds